From “Missional Church: A Vision for the Sending of the Church in North America”

18 08 2008

This just caught my attention. I wrote “whoah!” on the margin:

“The church is not simply a gathering of well-meaning individuals who have entered into a social contract to meet their privately defined self-interests. It is, instead, an intentional and disciplined community witnessing to the power and the presence of God’s reign.”

Never thought of it that way. But I have to agree. Unfortunately, most Americans’ idea of church is that “social contract” of getting private interests satisfied. That makes a church a whole lot smaller than what Jesus had in mind, I think…





Humbling…

12 08 2008

Well, I just got done going through my personal finances (I highly recommend the Budget software and going through the Good Sen$e program.); and I realized that I had to share what’s been going on with my pre-seminary finance gathering process.

As many of you know, I am going to be taking seminary classes in the fall. Yes, I am crazy. Yes, I am taking a full course load. But, my email isn’t supermannino for nothing. Nah, I just really feel that if Nehemiah could get the Israelites to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem while also having the workers multi-task as guards, I should be able to learn about Jesus and teach about Jesus at the same time. Anywhoo…

So…I sent out support letters back in June (a weird experience for someone who is always an advocate of a ministry but not necessarily God’s ministry though ME?!?!?), and I didn’t really know what to expect. I calculated the total cost of going to seminary, and realized that it’s going to raise my budget by $1095 per month while I’m in school if I don’t want to be in debt afterwards. This is scary when you consider that this three-year period is supposed to begin in September of 2008 and end in May of 2011. That’s a long time and it’s quickly approaching.

Also, when you consider our current family budget situation (let’s just say that we don’t even have cable, the Internet, or the ability to buy groceries at fancy grocery stores like Raley’s), you realize that it isn’t a matter of simply “scrimping” a little. No, this is going to take support.

So…that was why I was nervous, and this is why I’m smiling.

My family has already given $11,000 to support us! Two church friends (couples I should say) have given $2,500. One friend has offered to support us by giving us $51 per month over the duration of my studies (an awesome commitment!). Our church budget even had a place for $2,000 to be set aside for me to go to school. Things are looking up. And, if I did my math correctly, that means that I am only still needing $570 per month over this next few years. Hey, that’s a lot less than the $1095! So…the work is not done, but I feel really good going into this first semester, which begins four weeks from today!

I want to thank you all. Although I know you want to remain anonymous, I just want you to know that I thank God for all of you who have done what you have done. I am definitely also thankful for the couples that I have spoken with recently who have offered their support. As I said earlier, regular monthly support is great; and so is a one time gift. Monthly irregular gifts are awesome too! If you would like to do something creative like offer to pay for my books for one semester, let me know that too. I’m open for however you want to be involved.

So…F.Y.I., here’s what my expenses are looking like this semester…

$50 Application Fee (hey…I keep track of everything!)
$3,950 Tuition for 10 hrs of classes
$266 Cost for the 17 (SEVENTEEN?!?!?!) books I need this semester
$240 Cost of the (at least) 20 trips I’ll be making to the Sacramento campus
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$4506 Anticipated Cost for This Semester
-$356 Need-Based Grant from the School
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$4150

So, yeah, I’ve got it covered for now; but there are THREE semesters per year. This is just #1. Don’t forget about #’s 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, and 9. If you want to help me out, please either email me or call me at 707.454.6390. I can send you my support letter.

But for all of you have jumped in already. I love you. MK loves you. Our cats love you. God loves you.





Mission Trip Day 4

11 08 2008

Wednesday, July 23…

OK, so on this morning, we had the wonderful experience of being able to shower. Yeah, up until this point, we couldn’t shower because the church at which we were staying didn’t really have the capacity to support all fifty something of us. So, on this particular day, we went to the Killarney Pool to be reminded of middle school gym class. Eeesh…

We had another session on that day. I can’t say I remember much from it, but I do remember being really excited about the Mission Workshops that we signed up for. I had signed up our group to take a Cultural Sensitivity training class, focusing mostly on the First Nations population of Vancouver (First Nations is to Canada what Native Americans is to the USA). Our speaker shared with us about a lot of her life experiences and what it was like to be a First Nations person in Canada. For one, there’s the whole juggling of tribal customs with her newly found faith in Jesus. And, for another, there are horrible terms used to describe First Nations people in Canada. The term that she had mentioned being called one time was a “Chug,” a biting reference to the alcoholism problem in her community. I guess she was really trying to prepare us for the concept that we might not be the “great white hope” to these people. So much damage has already been done in Canada in relationships between whites and First Nations people. I know we have our parallels in America, so I think that this was a good learning experience for our group.

After the first workshop, we had a discussion group about the meaning of justice. Our group is deep, no doubt. And, I’m kind of ashamed to say that I have half forgotten what we talked about during that time. I do know that we talked about the difference between “fairness” (a subjective human term) and “justice” (an absolute truth of God). I do remember that we talked about fair trade products and how we should examine the labels of things like coffee and chocolate. For example, Mars and Nestle are not fair trade companies; so what would that mean for us as consumers? I do remember hearing about a family that knew that they couldn’t escape our society’s cycle of purchasing clothing made in third world nations; so, as an alternative (and a form of justice if I may say so), they decided to read the labels of the clothes that they were wearing every morning and pray for the nations represented on the “made in ___________” tag. For example, I’m rocking my “Fear the Walken” t-shirt, a white t-shirt under that, some khaki shorts, and some boxers. I will pause in my writing to check their origins…

Boxers - Indonesia
Shorts - Afghanistan
Walken Shirt - Honduras
White Tee - Dominican Republic

Now here’s my quandary. I don’t know much about what’s going on in those countries. I don’t know much about what the struggles of the average workers are. I know that Indonesia is predominantly Muslim, a bad place to be a Christian. But I also know that YWAM is growing in Jakarta. I know a little about what’s going on in Afghanistan (although I’m sure my US military bias might distort the truth a bit). I can’t imagine how difficult to would be to be a follower of Christ there. As far as Honduras and the D.R. go, well, I don’t know much. I am ignorant. I just exposed how ignorant I am. I would kill on Jeopardy, but I can’t tell you much about these countries. That has to stop. I want to pray for these nations. If I’m not willing to pray for that country, I shouldn’t buy the item of clothing from it.

I do remember talking about recycling (something I stink at) with Logan. He told me I could collect all my recyclables and bring them to his house because he has big bins. OK, that’s another start.

We want to get to know our homeless population in Vacaville. How can we help them? The only way to really know is to ask.

So…after all of that intense, thought-provoking stuff, we got some culture by going to an Indian restaurant: Ashiana Tandoori. Mmm… Now, you don’t have to tell me twice to chow down at an Indian place. I sat with Matt, Chad, and Stephanie. We had a great time. I couldn’t believe how brave Stephanie was being, eating things she had never tried before. It was great to watch, and I’m proud of her. We had curried veggies, flat bread, buttered chicken, some kind of lentil stuff, and some nice cracker-type stuff with a sweet sauce. Good, good, good. Ryan was so nice– be bought some poori (the awesome inflatable Indian bread) for MK and me to enjoy with our meal. Is it wrong to say that the only other thing I can remember is that the urinal in the bathroom looked like it was designed for The Great Khali? It was huge. You had to stand on your toes to use it; and, when you did, you felt like you had just accomplished something. All the guys were very curious about the size of the dudes working in the kitchen.

We had a session that night; this was the night of Commitment. Sheesh…I just realized that I skipped the previous night being the Passion night. I’ll go back and add that later. That was an awesome experience. I know I prayed with Brent, Chad, and Matt. I can’t remember who else I was praying with, but I knew that God was working on everyone that night. The Passion night was cool. Anyway, on the Commitment night, we were asked to commit to missions in our lives. Here’s the cool, thing, though. Before we even had that meeting, we had a leader meeting. And, at that leader meeting, we were talking about how our group was still struggling with opening up to one another. It was evident. It was cool to be able to pray with kids; but, for the most part, everything was kind of vague still. We needed an icebreaker. Did Joe ever come through in the clutch! He said that we should have a foot washing ceremony after the Commitment service. We would, instead of going straight to bed, have them announce that Covenant was going to be meeting in the chapel. I love the team that I worked with. They worked everything out and bathed the whole experience in prayer. Shoot, all I had to do was throw some melodic worship music in for the background.

As the kids entered the room, the ladies went to one side and the men to the other. And, we basically started washing the feet of our kids and praying for them. I had “last pick,” so it was amazing to see the love that was happening between Dan, Joe, and the guys on my side. All I remember is a ton of tears, tears between brothers and tears between sisters, tears between friends, and tears amongst us all. The whole thing spread, kids were praying with and for one another. There’s Johnny running over to wrap his arms around Emily, the two of them weeping. There’s Joe washing the feet of Matt, trying to get words through his tears. I saw Logan walking around hugging everyone in the group. Ryan said that he remembers feeling the hand of God on him that night, and I don’t doubt him. It was amazing. I felt so weird having Dan wash my feet. Shouldn’t I be washing his? Didn’t he pour hours and hours of his “free time” into driving for this convoluted trip? Shouldn’t I be watching his? I respect him so much, and somehow he washed mine. I felt vulnerable. I felt disarmed. I felt right.

Then we all prayed in a circle for one another. I don’t think we anticipated this happening, but it definitely did. Tears. Words. Tears. Words. A lot of our hearts were put out there in that circle. “You are my second family.” “I’ve never felt love like this before.” “This is where I belong.” I love my job.

And, for me, the icing on the cake was Mary Kate, praying to close that time out. To hear her on fire, to hear her loving these kids with everything inside her, to hear her wanting to join with me in my life’s mission, there are no words. No words. And, for me, you know that must mean something.

That night was special. I wanted to capture it in some way. I stayed up later than anyone that night, trying to write encouraging notes to everyone in the group. It’s definitely not something I normally do, but I think it’s something that I need to do more. I wanted to thank the adults, and I wanted to encourage everyone for creating this amazing atmosphere in which God was working. As I said, tongue in cheek, to Katie after the foot washing, “Well, I guess that worked.”





Our Take on the Vancouver Mission Trip (Days 1-3)

3 08 2008

So…I know that you have heard crickets chirping on this site for awhile. I have definitely been preoccupied with the high school mission trip to Vancouver. So, I apologize for not writing; but I can definitely say that I will always prefer living God’s mission to writing about God’s mission. Anyway, here’s my fearless recap…

Sunday, July 20…

MK and I get up at the crack of dawn (think 5:00 AM) to get everything ready, say good-bye to the cats, and meet Dan and Amy (two volunteers) at the church to go pick up the three rental vans in Sacramento. What did we learn about that? Don’t back up once you go into the lot. Your tires will be slashed.

We arrive at the church and already kids are showing up (with parents and friends) to the send-off breakfast that our church’s women’s ministry put on. It was very nice. Honestly, I didn’t have much time to enjoy it. Too many last minute forms, packing duties, and whatnot. I don’t think I blew a gasket, though; and that’s always a good thing. A church member prayed for us, and we were off…

My take on the drive is probably different from others’ because I love the conversation and relational time that you can have with students and adults in a seven-hour road trip. This trip was no exception. I spent a great deal of time talking to kids, getting to know them better, or simply rocking out to the worship cd’s that I had custom-made for the trip. I thought it was great. Did people have to stop a lot? Yeah. Did it bother me? Not really. I just knew that I wanted to get to Eugene at some point. And, we did. And, we ate pizza when we got there. It was good. Then I had a wonderful bonding experience with Matt, Brent, and Chad in our hotel room.

MK’s Notes: Since I drove our Jetta for the entire trip, I was always able to have another girl ride “shotgun” with me. This is actually pretty good since I really like one-on-one conversation more than group chaos (that’s Paul’s thing). I had a really good time talking to Stephanie about life and school, laughing and doing funny dances to Christians songs. I also enjoyed laughing with Holly and talking about school and life. I loved being able to share my life with both of them.

In the hotel at night time, we had a good time watching The Food Network and going to bed early.

Monday, July 21…

I wouldn’t say that I’m a crazy person, but I would say that I am crazy about making sure that we got to Vancouver on time that day (think 4:30 PM). So…I might have put the fear of God into the team that morning concerning getting up and packed early. The good news is that this team as faster than a NASCAR pit crew. We were out of there before the roosters crowed in Eugene.

Hmm…that day got increasingly zany on the road. I definitely recall a certain Ryan dancing with all his might (while buckled in, I promise) with his head out the window, trying to get truckers to honk their horns. Yeah, it was also a day of riddles, jokes, and fun. All sorts of nice ice-breaking joy.

We did arrive in Vancouver with about as much time to spare as MacGiver sliding through an automatic door. We got a little lost. I had to apologize to my navigators for getting a little frustrated (sorry, Logan and Ryan). But, we did make it.

The YWAM program began with a leader meeting. It was cool to find out that our group would be accompanied throughout the week by Rene (who I had been working with to set up the trip) and Joshua (a cool Sicilian kid who actually knew where my ancestral Sicilian home of Torretta is). We had no idea all the cool stuff that was in store for the week, and we began to see things on paper. I just remember being so excited.

I don’t remember much of the first session. I do know that Adam (a YWAM staffer) gave his testimony. I love that guy. I wish I could listen to it again, knowing his heart. But he was talking about (pronounced a-BOOT) how God would send someone all the way across the world to teach them a lesson. I agree. He definitely did that this week. Our speaker for the week, Joseph, told us a lot of stories about his life and about destiny. I know that his message meant a lot to many of the kids on the trip.

We were amped that night, but we were also equal parts tired. We didn’t mingle much with the other group, a group of high school graduates from a camp in Washington (Camp Spaulding). And, remarkably, our other group that would be with us, a Korean church from New York’s armpit, hadn’t even made it to Vancouver yet. Our guys left a note for them (since we were sharing a room), telling the NJ crew that they could make us much noise as they needed as they got settled in. Tiredness is about perspective I guess. We were tired, but they were going to be beat.

MK’s Notes: Towards the last leg of the trip to Vancouver, I feel like I had a great conversation with Caitlin, one that could promote growth between the two of us throughout the week. I was a little nervous about crossing the border, for fear of my car getting searched or getting frisk or something like that; but, with God’s help, we got through safely.

Upon arriving at the church, the first thing that I wanted to do was to get my bags upstairs and get settled in. When we had the leaders’ meeting and we knew what the schedule was going to be like for the week, to be completely honest, I was a little worried that we were only going to be able to take a few (like three) showers. But then, thinking about the perspective that we were supposed to have on the trip, I was fine with it.

That night, before we all went to bed, I think that, out of sheer exhaustion on my part, I went a little crazy, laughing really loud and quoting “Steel Magnolias” an awful lot. I think it helped the group to go to bed with a joyful heart.

Tuesday, July 22…

A recurring theme of the week was that our group always seemed to have one reason or another to get up early. This day was the first of those. We helped do “breakfast prep.” I liked “having” to do these things. It reminded me that I wasn’t there to be served but to serve, even if it was our fellow Christians and not the “super lost” people of “the world.” Apparently, I sang a little too loud that morning. Upon learning that a YWAM staffer, Marcia, was from Jamaica, I began freestyling songs to the tune of Bob Marley. I do remember Mary Kate rapping and daring people to go through the food line, threatening that she would beat them up (jokingly, of course).

On this day, we were going to split into groups to do our “Urban Plunge.” We also needed to make bag lunches for ourselves and one extra for each group. Mmm…sandwiches.

I won’t bore you with the details of our briefing about Vancouver and the problems of the city. All I can say is that we were prepped to go into the city in groups to share our lunches with homeless people. It was intimidating but cool. MK wanted to be with me, so we chose Holly and Matt to round out our group.

It was already a little tricky when we tried to find free parking because we had been told not to bring any money at all. We finally found a parking place in a place that I wouldn’t ever park my banged-up Civic in, much less a really nice rental van; and finally, with a quickie prayer to God to save our ride, we were off, walking up and down streets, trying to answer a scavenger hunt of questions, somewhat scared of who we would ask to share our lunch with.

We walked around the city, finding out such random things as how much a dried lizard costs in Chinatown, how much a cheap hotel costs in skid row, what services are offered at the local library, and (just for our own clarification) what exactly was stored in the $500 jars at the Asian pharmacies.

We found “our guy” to share lunch with. He was sitting on the corner, near the library. He was alone. We had already passed a park full of rather boisterous homeless people, but there was something different about this guy. He was on his own. We asked him if we could eat with him, and he shrugged his shoulders. I’m not sure if this man was used to having conversations with people or if he was a little lost in his mind because, every time I asked him a question, he mumbled some kind of response, as if we could hear. We couldn’t. Then a guy who sounded like he was from a Caribbean nation (who was rocking a New York Rangers hat) came up and asked for some of our meals. We shared with him too. He was exceedingly difficult to understand as well, with a very thick accent. At one point, I thought I had made him mad. Kind of scary. But, he kind of laughed off whatever seemed to be the problem and was off. It was a strange experience overall, but I was glad to have experienced it. I felt that we almost were supposed to be like the friends in Job (when they were doing the right thing) and just sit there. It didn’t matter what we said. It mattered that we were there.

After that, we were supposed to meet at some tourist trap called the steam clock. It was kind of lame. Then we were given our orders for our second leg of the plunge.

It was pretty obvious that the second leg was supposed to expose us to the juxtaposition of the have-nots and the haves of Vancouver. The have section was nice, a place that MK and I would have loved to visit on a vacation. The hotel rooms there were a whole lot more expensive. I did notice that there a lot of people in that area of town whose job it was to clean up tiny bits of trash (like cigarette butts), while the ghetto has junk everywhere and smelled like urine. Oh, and did I mention that we saw a cross-dresser get into a fight with one guy, call the cops, and almost get attacked by another guy?!? Yeah, you wouldn’t see that in the nice area of town.

A defining moment for me, that day was walking back to our van and seeing this beautiful professional graffiti on a wall outside a park. It was so nice. There was even a mural with all of the Peanuts characters. I was taken back, though, when Matt pointed out that Snoopy (in his normal position, lying on top of his dog house) had had a needle painted onto his arm. Actually, they all had needles on their arms. Why do we ruin such beautiful things? If we get all sanctimonious, I can definitely think of an Artist whose work is soiled in much worse ways every day.

Oh, on the way back, we had a strange encounter in the park right next to our van. A young lady asked us if we were Christians. I said, “Yeah, are those the only kind of people who look like us who would come to this place?” She said, “Pretty much.” Then she walked up to us to make a point to ask us to pray for her and shake all her hands. When she walked away, MK let me know that she was actually selling needles to a kid on a bike while she was talking to us. Man…

I don’t remember much about the session that night. How could I? I was rocked by everything that happened during the day. [After writing this, I realized that that night was the Passion night. I talk about it a little in the next post.]

MK’s Notes: Upon knowing that our task for the day was to share a lunch with homeless person, I was a little nervous. Walking up to a complete stranger and asking them if we could sit with them for a little while, I wasn’t really sure how I was going to be. I must admit that I was distracting myself by walking in and out of all of these random shops downtown. Realizing that I would have felt very guilty if I didn’t complete my task, I started to look around to see who we could share our lunch with. When we came across the guy on the corner, I knew he was the one were meant to eat with. I remember, at one point, looking at Paul and saying, “I don’t know what to say to him.” At certain points, during our lunch, I caught people’s eyes; and it looked as though they were thoroughly confused as to why someone like me, dressed like me, was sitting on a dirty corner with a homeless man. In a way, I felt proud. Is that a bad thing?





You, Me, and Zebedee…

3 07 2008

OK, so I was reading a book this morning; and it got me to thinking about a dude in the Bible who is mentioned all the time, but never really in any depth…Zebedee.

Yeah, the famous fisherman papa of James and John. I guess sometimes we simply think that Zebedee must have welled up with pride to know that his two sons ended up being two of Jesus’ inner circle. No one else could really claim that. I mean, Peter and Andrew had a dad; but Andrew wasn’t present at the transfiguration or asked to pray for Jesus in the garden. James and John both were. They were the sons of thunder. So, oftentimes, I think of Zebedee as the proud papa.

But, then I thought about the fact that Jesus was walking on the beach that one day and invited them to follow. Was it ALL of them? Was Zebedee invited? All I know is that the sons went. Zebedee did not. Zebedee’s legacy [besides being the modifier that we use to describe one James in regard to the other James (James "the Less"...bummer!)] is as the man who stayed. The man who kept untangling the nets. He had work to do. He didn’t have time to follow.

Well, I think, at times, in my life I have been like Zebedee. I have said to Jesus, “Yeah, I know that You want me to follow; but I have this or that.” Sometimes “this” or “that” has even been youth ministry related stuff, good stuff. But, I don’t want to do anything at the expense of following Jesus. I don’t want to be left simply holding a net. I don’t want to miss the boat. Or, I guess more appropriate to the analogy, be left standing in a boat.

That’s one of the reasons why I am going to seminary now. Why now? Because Jesus asked me to. I could have waited until I was more secure financially. I could have waited until I had my feet wet in California for awhile. I could have waited for a lot of things. But Jesus never stopped while He gave the invitation. Either they hopped out of the boat and followed, or He was moving on.

So…I’m hopping.

I signed up for my first semester of classes yesterday:

Learning to Interpret Scripture (4 hrs)

This one’s going to be a beast. My class is from 6 PM - 10 PM on Monday nights. It should be hard work, but I can’t think of anything that I would enjoy learning about more than the Bible.

Thinking Theologically about Ministry (2 hrs)

This is a class that I’m taking online. By the end of this class, I’m going to be able to write out my ministry philosophy. This will be helpful whenever I get to the pastoral hiring process. It’s also cool because I’ll be able to learn about all these church “movements.” I hate labels, but I also get frustrated when people talk about all this stuff that I don’t understand. So this should be a good one.

Growing Disciples Intentionally (2 hrs)

This is an “In-Ministry” class. In other words, I go to class intensively for a couple of days (think 9 - 5); and then my assignments are to apply what I am learning in my existing ministry context. Hmm, now if only I could find some people to disciple… He he he…just kidding. I am excited for my “guinea pigs.”

Maximizing the Church’s Redemptive Influence (2 hrs)

This is the other “In-Ministry” class. I don’t really know what to expect from this one. But, when you can take the opportunity to only have to commute to Sacramento for 3 days, you take it! So, I’m open to whatever God is going to teach me through this class.

Anyway, don’t be a Zebedee!

The only nets worth holding on to are the ones you get to cut down when you win the NCAA Tournament. And that comes from playing the game! (Um…I know, kinda cheesy. Cue “One Shining Moment” by Luther Vandross.)

[Oh, and a little update on my workout schedule. 8 out of 11 days. Not bad!]





Four!

26 06 2008

OK, so it’s been awhile since I’ve written an entry. Apparently, my friend Chris Denning is a little annoyed by this fact and believes that if I “twittered” that it would help. Oh no, my friend. I’m a WordPress guy. I’ve just been doing a lot of thinking and working and thinking and working.

So…why call this entry “Four!”? Well, a lot of things have been building up to me making a lifestyle choice. A lot of things have been whizzing by my ears and eyes, and I am finally starting to take them in.

1. I had to go to the doctor for the first time in a long time because I have been feeling really cruddy recently.

2. My pastor just did a series called “From Burnout to Balance.” Figure out what it was about.

3. I just lead a Confirmation Retreat where I talked about spiritual maturity with a group of teenagers.

And what have I realized about myself?

1. I’m way out of shape. Sorry if you’re more out of shape then me. I’m not trying to offend you. We’re both out of shape. We need to take care our our bodies. It is a mandate from God. For some reason, though, I haven’t taken that seriously in a long time. So, I don’t exercise; and eat way to much junk. I was a svelte 157 in college. I weighed in at 217 at my doctor’s visit last week. That would be sweet if I was bulking up to try my hand at pro wrestling; but, I’m sure very little of that weight is muscle. So…unless I want to ride one of those scooters around at Wal-Mart (like many of the other people who just got too big to walk around a store), I probably need to do something about it.

2. I am burning the candle on both ends. I am trying to do way to much. I realized this, and I realize that it isn’t healthy. Yeah, being a youth pastor affords many opportunities to get a God complex; and apparently I took the bait. I do have my mental breaks that I take throughout the day (Fantasy Baseball, Facebook Wrestling, etc.), but I don’t have rest as a part of my lifestyle. Not good, homie. I would prefer to keep my hair brown.

3. I might know a lot about God, but I can hardly say that I place my days at His feet. I rush through everything like a mad man; and, even though I am seeking God throughout the day, I’m not really thinking much before it all begins (the time where it could probably help most).

Well…I did something about it.

On Monday I did some things that (all together) I probably haven’t done in 8 or 9 years.

1. I got up earlier than I had to.
2. I went to my workout facility to cardio and strength.
3. I listened to a Rob Bell sermon on my iPod.
4. I wrote in my journal, dedicating my day to God and considering how I can do that.
5. I ate breakfast.

Yeah, a great combination. And I was at work by my normal time of 10 AM.

Oh, and I did it on Tuesday…

…and Wednesday…

…and this morning.

So…I’m trying to change my lifestyle. I’m not “picking up habits.” I’m trying to change my lifestyle.

A more disciplined lifestyle.
A healthier lifestyle.
A stronger lifestyle.
A more contemplative lifestyle.
A more submissive lifestyle.
A more “filling” lifestyle.

Let’s see how it goes…





Art…

29 04 2008

I don’t even really know what to think about all the controversy swirling around the new Miley Cyrus photo spread in “Vanity Fair.” Ironically, the cover of the magazine says, “Miley Cyrus takes off…”

She’s fifteen.

Some quotes from the “Hannah Montana” star:

“I took part in a photo shoot that was supposed to be ‘artistic’ and now, seeing the photographs and reading the story, I feel so embarrassed. I never intended for any of this to happen…”

Why do we, as a society, have this idea that if something is done “artistically” that what is in front of us doesn’t matter? Are we supposed to have sort of cognitive dissonance when we see “art.” For example, in a movie like “Sweeney Todd,” there is a ton of violence; but since it is meant to be “artistic,” it doesn’t count. Really? And if a fifteen year-old-girl is looking ruffled, topless in a bedsheet, if it is “artistic,” we are not supposed to think about the fact that a high school girl is in a bed with no shirt on? I am embarrassed that Miley Cyrus thought that it being “artistic” could make a difference. Does it? Where did she get that message?

I do believe that she didn’t intend for any of this to happen. But, then again, did she plan for it NOT to happen? What would that look like?

“I think it’s really artsy. It wasn’t in a skanky way. Annie took, like, a beautiful shot, and I thought that was really cool. That’s what she wanted me to do, and you can’t say no to Annie.”

Again, here’s that “artsy” word. Why is it artsy? Could it have been just as artsy if she was wearing a shirt? I’m just very confused about this. I thought art was all about composition, lighting, color tinting, and expression. I simply don’t understand why lack of clothing and a risque pose play into it. If those things do play into the art of it, what is the “piece” communicating?

Miley said that she could not “say no to Annie [the photographer].” It’s almost as if we deify artists and allow them to determine what is appropriate in our lives. This is all really sad to me.

A quote from the photographer:

“I’m sorry that my portrait of Miley has been misinterpreted. Miley and I looked at fashion photographs together and we discussed the picture in that context before we shot it. The photograph is a simple, classic portrait, shot with very little makeup, and I think it is very beautiful.”

It may be “fashion[able]” or “beautiful,” but that doesn’t mean that it’s right.

I’m creeped out by all of this. Note to self, “Self, when you have a daughter, make sure that she knows that it is not ‘artistic’ to take nude, semi-nude, or topless photos of herself for all the world to see (and even in ‘private’ because they never stay ‘private.’).”

But I think that there’s a more practical application to all of this than that. Ladies, young ladies, please, THINK. Ask someone you trust (not a boy…and probably NOT a girl who is the same age as you…think youth leader, parent, older sister) to look at your pictures (on Facebook, MySpace, whatever…) and see if they see something in those photos that maybe you didn’t see. Sometimes we don’t want to see the truth about a picture. Sometimes we lie to ourselves and say that it isn’t there.

Questions to ask…

1. Could my pose be considered “sexy”?
2. Is my tongue sticking out, and would this lead other people to stumble?
3. Is it wise to have a picture of me with so few clothing items on for guys to see?
4. Can you see down my shirt in this picture?
5. Can you see my underwear?

You might think this is silly, but I GUARANTEE that guys (Christian or not) don’t even have to consciously go through that check list. In fact, guys look for that.

“Whoah, she looks ‘hot’ in that picture! I didn’t know she had that ’side’ to her.”
“Dude, I can think of what I’d like to do with that tongue!”
“Yesss…so that’s what she looks like in a bikini!”
“Sweet, cleavage shot!”
“He he he, I can see up the leg of her shorts.”

Now, instead of feeling guilty or dirty, I think it’s important to understand that our society places a lot of pressure on young ladies to be “eye candy” for men. But, I do believe, that the Truth can set ladies free from this demeaning pattern…

John 8:10-11 puts second chances this way…

“Jesus straightened up and asked [the woman who was caught in the act of adultery], ‘Woman, where are [your accusers]? Has no one condemned you?’

‘No one, sir,’ she said.
‘Then neither do I condemn you,’ Jesus declared. ‘Go now and leave your life of sin.’ “

She was probably a topless girl too, having nothing but a sheet to cover her up. But Jesus didn’t condemn her. He told her to get on with her life.

Jesus didn’t want to see someone precious to Him be used by men.

I’m thankful to serve a God like that.





Going to Strip Clubs for Bachelor Parties…

26 04 2008

Does anyone else find it interesting that it is a tradition for a man to go and spend time ogling naked women within a week of showing his commitment to one woman at a wedding?

The reason I bring this up is because of that story about the young man, Sean Bell, who was killed in New York. He was shot exiting a strip club the night before his wedding. It’s such a part of our culture that no one seems to even notice that this guy was being unfaithful the night before his wedding. Bell was shot by the police because they thought he had a gun. The driver of the car was either hostile or intoxicated because he allegedly tried to run over one of the cops. So, the cops shot the guy. Yes, they made a horrible mistake.

I know that this story stinks on so many levels; but, for me, it exposes an issue in our society that is disgusting…

Why do women allow their fiances to go out to strip clubs before the wedding? What is that supposed to prove? What good could that accomplish?

I feel bad about this man’s death, but I feel worse that no one seems to care about where he was when he died.

Check out this verse…

Job 31:1

“I made a covenant with my eyes
not to look lustfully at a girl.”

Have we gotten to the point where we laugh at God and simply say, “Yeah, I’ll keep a covenant with my eyes (except for at my bachelor party…I mean, come on, God).”

Women should not feel guilty about saying “no” when fiances want to do this. I’ve got your back, and so does God.

Do you want to marry a guy who won’t respect you enough to end this tradition?





Homeless People…

25 04 2008

Is anyone afraid of them? Why?





Violent Movies…

23 04 2008

Yeah, so I watched the beginning of a really violent movie this morning. I couldn’t “take it,” so I turned it off. I’ve always had a weak stomach, so I guess that’s no surprise. I’ve actually intentionally chosen to not watch movies like “The Saw” or “Hostel” because I know that I can’t handle it. So why did I watch it? I thought it would be different.

I watched a person have their head ripped off. (Some of you might be thinking, “Oh, please, I’ve seen that so many times before that it doesn’t even increase my pulse rate anymore.”)

I saw that same person have all their limbs be ripped off in one single motion. (Again, some of you might be thinking, “Yeah, so?”)

I saw a human being ripped out of a vagina and split into pieces. (”What?!?!?”)

And it was real.

I was watching a documentary, and I saw a human being be executed right in front of a camera. I saw the doctor reassuring testify that, now that this person is dead, a girl will get to go to college! Yay. Sounds like an even tradeoff, right?

I was watching the first few minutes of “Lake of Fire,” a documentary about the abortion controversy. And I didn’t expect to see what I just saw.

The doctor has used some form of suction to rip the child out of the woman’s womb. I was just getting over the awkwardness of seeing that with my wife right beside me, when WHAM– the a pool of chunky blood landed into some containers.

Then, I forced myself to watch the doctor empty the contents from those containers into some pans to make sure that all the body parts had gotten out. Like a man panning for gold, the doctor pieced together a foot here, a hand there.

The executioner explained, “Now this mother will be able to continue her college education.” So matter of fact. Numbingly, matter of fact. I had to wonder how many of these “procedures” this particular doctor initiated per day. I wondered if he simply gave his hands a good scrubbing, picked up some flowers for his wife and a bucket of chicken for the kids on the way home, and sat around with his family and watched new episodes of “American Idol” after a day like THAT.

A couple of years ago, someone shared me this “super conservative” abortion tape. I watched it in horror; but, in the back of my mind, thinking, “It can’t be this bad.”

Well, I just watched a child that had been inside a young woman’s womb for 22 weeks get sucked out violently more violently than a Quentin Tarantino film. And it was that bad.

I’m not even going to talk about whether or not abortion is bad. That’s a silly conversation, if you ask me. Would you really look God in the eye and say, “I was a little unclear about what you said about murder, God. Can you elaborate?”

When did we decide that we had “rights”? Look at this verse.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.”

You are not your own. You were bought. This isn’t “Memoirs of a Geisha.” We’re talking about our lives being paid for by the death of Jesus on the cross. If you take that, you are supposed to understand that a transaction has taken place. We are no longer supposed to call the shots.

So why all this talk about “a woman’s right to choose”? I think God should do the choosing.

My friend, Mike, is a doctor at the Alpha Pregnancy Center. Before you do anything rash, I would recommend talking to them. If you can’t find a place to go near to you, I would love to pray with you and offer and help and any connections that I can.

People don’t like to call sin “sin.” I’m not sure why. I guess because it makes us all feel a little bit better when we screw up. But, I would definitely say that you can call something sin, commit a sin, and still be forgiven. Even if you have made a mistake in the past, God can still offer you life. But, please, the worst thing that you can do is lie to yourself to make yourself feel better. Believe me, I’ve done that before; and it is much healthier to give yourself to God with all your brokenness.

Let God choose your direction.